I’m tired of crying.
I’m tired of being ignored.
I’m tired of feeling like shit.
I’m tired of not feeling like I’m appreciated.
I’m tired of being hurt.
It’s been a year now, and I’ve been there every step of the way, I’ve given you my all, I’ve given you my heart, I’ve given you support, I’ve done everything I could possibly do.
I love you so much, that I’m willing to put up with ALL of this shit, even though I know you don’t trust me, that you don’t fully love me back, that you may not even possibly be able to love me back .
The edges haven’t frayed, it’s a giant soul shattering hole in my heart.
You tell me you don’t know if you could ever trust me.
You tell me you don’t know if you could ever love me.
You tell me, “I’m going to stab you where it hurts.”
I don’t cry easily. I don’t get upset. I don’t get angry.
Yet, you’ve been able to do that to me, and no one else has that much power.
I hope you see that though the world is a dark place, your biggest fears come from you in some way.
I pray that you realize this, I pray that you realize that even though the world seems out to get you, that you can mitigate the damage yourself, and do better with it.
I pray that you realize how badly you’re hurting me, and how much I love you that I decide to stick around.
I love you, and I won’t stop loving you.